I'm not sure why I need to write about the fact that I'm now a size 12. I think because I've kind of had an epiphany about it. Since I've gone back to work in an office I needed to buy some new clothes, especially for spring and summer.
I was a skinny kid, I had a nick names of "tooth pick legs" and "bones". Stayed skinny through high school but, the summer after my freshman year I went from an A cup bra to a C cup - in one summer! If girls/women had been having boob jobs back then I would have been accused of having a boob job! So, I started to get called, "bodacious".
I've been pretty lucky with my weight I was 125 when I got pregnant and only gained 25 lbs. It all came off after I had my son, I think because I nursed for about a year and a half. I think I went down to 120. One time when I was visiting my family my grandfather told my mother that she'd better feed me. I've seen pictures of myself back then (over 20 years ago) and I think I look a little bony.
I've steadily gained weight over the years, I guess just due to age and inactivity. I'm not a total couch potato, I swim twice a week and try to get some walking in as well but, I'm not as diligent as I should be. I'm now around 150-160, I'm not sure I don't own a scale.
Anyway, the epiphany part - I'm just sick of thinking about my weight. I don't diet because I know they don't work but, I eat healthy and yes, I like dessert once in a while and I won't deny myself. I didn't go shopping for awhile after getting my job because my size 10 dresses weren't fitting. I like having big boobs (I just graduated to a 40D!!!) and a big butt. I like being curvy (and, yes my husband likes it too!).
I do wish my gut was little smaller and I didn't have cellulite on the back of my legs but, shit, the way I see it is if someone doesn't like it, don't look at it!
I'm very, very grateful to have my health. We should all be grateful for being healthy no matter your size. I'm not a doctor or dietitian but, I do know that you can be skinny and not healthy.
I went shopping yesterday and bought some dresses in size 12. I tried them on at the store and I felt fabulous!
My real problem now....I think I'm addicted to shopping.
Feel fabulous no matter what anyone says!
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